One of the best examples of artistic integrity on a corporate scale.
No matter how many times I see this, I never fail to be impressed by that last sentence.
Its crazy how someone could just leave your life in such a split second and not leave any advice behind. Not that i blame you for it because obviously how could you? but ive gotten through these past couple months by pushing pain aside, helping everyone else through the grief and only taking brief seconds to slow down and take everything in. Now, i feel alone, lost. Christy is gone and i know i sound like a whiny baby but shes my rock. its crazy how i knew you for 18 years and it took about 15 before i even started liking you. It took me so long to understand what a big brothers purpose was and it took me to about now to really understand how lost i am without your advice. Whether it was literal advice or just watching your actions and how you dealt with things. I always felt secure and knew i had someone to confide in if something ever went wrong. Without you, i now realize how much i wish i wouldve said, or what i wouldve done. All i remember is stupid things like you losing that drift on stirling road and the only thought going through my head was ” should i tell mom?” or the time we were at a soccer tournament and you were making fun of me in front of your friends and i got one good punch in before everyone got between us. It was pure bliss back then and honestly, im glad i got it, because who can say they got a punch like that on Tony Yeoman? not anyone in quite a while. i cherish these little memories with myself because if that what i have to hang on to than i appreciate what i have. I just wish i had a few more. As im sure everyone else would too.My main regret is not telling you how much i really did appreciate you. Even though you werent the advice brother type, you really did make me feel good. I felt grown. I felt accepted by you. Like you finally realized we were both adults. Random thought” i dont know if you know this but Drew really did wear a dress on the day of your funeral. May not have been at the service but definitely right after. I always heard stories about your friends, and sure i knew a few in some matters, but it didnt hit as to how great they were until all this happened. You really made a difference on peoples lives, and not just by making fun of them. I was surprised when they started talking about your flights because Tony Yeoman is the definition of Anti Sentimental. But “Just in case…I love you,” is the strongest quote ive ever heard and it came out of your mouth. That is so powerful because it is so true. I just want you to know how proud i am of you. I dont know if youll ever get this message of youre watching me write it right now, but there is no prouder brother. I know what you would tell me to do and believe me ive turned things around in several different ways. Ive become the rock for mom and kira. Ive become a friend to Sarah and she knows ill always be here for her.Ive become more mature and able to stand up to dad, yet love him just the same. Im able to get back up after crying my eyes out and function like a human being. I got an internship that will eventually lead into a career, and Ive got the most beautiful woman by my side through it all. I cant wait for the future because i know im going to do what makes you and our family proud. You may have left some unanswered questions but i thank you for the challenge and the motivation. Just in case… I love you, brother.
This is how you lose her.
You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.
You must remember when she forgets.
You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.
She remembers when you forget.
You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.
You must learn her.
You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.
You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.
And, this is how you keep her.
Oh my god.
Its such a good feeling. This moment. When someone you love deeply, simply rest their hand on your leg after a long day. To be able to given the sense of comfort from the most innocent touch. That one simple, gentle moment makes the world lift off your shoulders. To know that someone will support you no matter what decisions or choices you make, as long as you are happy in the end. That they love all of you, even the things you hate about yourself. They adore those the most. I’m thankful and more so grateful to have you in my life. I love you. Not only as my soul mate but as my best friend, my rock, my support, my security blanket. I love you for all you are and will always be, my happily ever after #loveletter #iloveyou #deargirlfriend
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